A (random) Letter #3

It's already anticipated from the beginning
And I've already known and learned my lesson from my past
That love should bring freedom and peace and happiness
It should be let go
No rush needed, no force needed
It just should be... just let it be
The moment I confessed my feeling to you back then, I already know that the feeling had to be let go
Because we all know, if people are meant to be, they will be, no matter how impossible it is, the universe will bring them together at the end
I know it, but maybe I'm just contemplating with myself, become hesitate and confused whether what I'm doing all this time is the right definition of letting go or not
Yes I'm happy seeing you happy even if that means seeing you with someone else
Already telling you and myself that I have no other meaning besides only to let you know how I feel
Because for me, unsaid feelings/thoughts will hurt people more
Already teeling you so many times, that seeing you happy makes me happy
Despite saying--and knowing-- that I have to let the feeling free, I never saying goodbye to you
It only makes me seem like I, unconsciously, want to have you
Knowing that if two people are destined to be together they will meet either way, I probably make that statement as a hope for me to wait for you
So funny of me looks like I have the power and ability to know my destiny, seems like I'm so sure that we are meant to be together
When I should not be like that
What a poetic yet foolish thought I have, lol
So, this is it
I know the universe will give us the best thing for us, at the best time
Eventhough most times, it's not the way we expect to be
That's why we are taught to surrender for the things that out of our control; they will unfold--like, just like that--for all of us when the right time comes
Brave enough to say,

I love you, but
Goodbye, san.

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